On April 15th Jorge is supposed to be released from prison just in time for his birthday on the 18th. Only I probably won't be spending his birthday with him. There's a good chance he is going to be deported. Which means he will be shipped out on the 15th to another prison and held there till they get his paperwork done to deport him. He could be sent home to Colombia either on the last monday in April or if they don't get his paperwork done in time the last monday in May. I am so mad at our system for continuing to deny him his freedom after 20 years in hellholes we call prison. I am also frustrated with God. Why can't God work a miracle and let Jorge out? Hasn't he suffered enough. I know a month or so more is nothing after 20 years but come on. We've been through so much. He's been through so much. I wish I had the faith he did. I should be jumping 4 joy he is finally going to be free, but even that seems ruined because of the deportation thing and the added time and now I may have to move to Colombia and leave everything I know including the only language I know and my family. I know in the end everything is in God's hands and will work out 4 the best. I even think going to Colombia could be the best thing 4 us. It's just hard. I wish going or staying could be a decision we make and not a decision made 4 us.
ON a side and minor note is the fact I will probably have to leave my puppy Bessos with my sister 4 a little while if Jorge gets deported and I am having crazy mad separation anxiety. I know it's silly and the best thing is to go down get situated, spend time with my hubby etc then bring Bessos back. I got Bessos a little while after I got married. She has been with me through all the ups and downs and hard times. The thought of leaving her breaks my heart.
When I way the pros and cons of staying here vs going to Colombia its a no brainer. Colombia is better and I should thank the Feds 4 his free plane ride I guess. Jorge's parents have a beautiful 200 acre farm 4 Jorge 2 run. Jorge won't have to deal with finding a job and explaining he's been in prison 4 the last 20 years and he won't be stuck in a dead end job with lousy pay. Plus Jorge needs 2 be around his parents. He has been separated from his family for 20 years. Family is all that matters. I don't want him stuck here away from his family.
I have no control and neither does Jorge. So I guess I have to let go and let God do what is best and take the leap of faith. In this case though its more a Grand Canyon size leap. It's scary but exciting.
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